IT AIN’T OVER… UNTIL GOD SAYS IT’S OVER!

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I know many were concern that I wasn’t going to get back on the saddle… barely… but I got on it! 

Yes… my heart hurts a lot today… and I was stressed out !  As much as I didn’t have the desire to do anything but feel sorry for myself…  I prayed and I semi got it together… Continue to saturate my ministry and myself in constant prayer!

Thanks for the  love and support…from the ones that genuinely cared and those wo silently prayed for me and my family …that’s when  it counts the most!

 

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WHAT HAPPENED TO ME WITHIN THE LAST 24 HOURS…LIFE CHALLENGES BRINGS ON YOUR HUMAN STRANGENESS.

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When you are at another “Red Sea” moment… What do you do?  How do you react? Who do you really call on.? Who can you trust to be at your side in times of trouble? I share many, many times… You will see who  really cares and love you when trials come.  I had to hit the “War Room”…

Oddly, people have the strangest “spirituality” without the use of God. That’s not the  work of God.  People always  talk God not knowing his words…  I see what happens on a daily how people act until pressure is applied… What comes out of the mouth on a regular and  your actions tells me where you are… But I don’t get caught up in that… I see what I see, It’s what  I know what I know!

Just when everything was trying quiet down in my life. It shoots to another kind of high. … I was faced with my own private pain again with my closest friend and  family member on a breathing machine ventilator… If anyone could pray it should be me.  My humanness stepped in… In more ways than one. My nerves were rattled I was so mentally out of the box I knew I was on auto pilot.  I know better than to get to worn down because I was already having  some issues with eating  and now this happened I am barely eating…

Decisions I held back on ,  now  I am being forced to make. Challenges have a way of making you and breaking you. Tough talk is just tough talk until your face is all the way in it! I had gotten so overwhelmed until I didn’t realize I had sat in the same chair for almost 4 hours.  I had to come out of it…I have no other choice. Everything tried to grip me from doubt to fear. I had to breathe and pray.  Out of no where… I was hit with some harsh realities of what could happen. Although, she is still alive… with little brain activity… I still had to remind God that it HURTS! No matter how deep I  want to appear I still ask God…Why?

It was my turn again for more disappointments and pain… I needed an answer. 

I didn’t want anyone speaking to me about God… I was taken completely off my square!  In this I had to meditate and reflect what I have been ministering to everyone else all these years. That calmed me!   I was getting ready to announce some things I was going to do but now more than ever I became uncertain about everything.  It’s at this point… I had to get a grip on reality and believe in the arms of God that I “say” I serve.  It’s easy to believe for everyone but then when it comes to you… You go into anxieties and panic attacks because we have having another red sea  moment. 

I was grieved all last night until I got a strange call from someone  who angered me… because I knew this person had  created a  lot of problems for her on her job. The woman went on and  on until ” me” showed  up!!! I got so irritated with this nut job until I no longer felt the need to cry. I had to get up and start managing my life accordingly.

Sickness, death and financial challenges brings out the worse in people especially if they feel “strain” to help.  Generally, I can irritate people with my calmness. I let people say what they have to say  and do what they have to do. I have to take my time to pray and think.  Emotions always run high in the beginning. It’s always the long term results that I will have to live with.   I have to have that moment with me and God to reenergize my spirit man.   It’s amazing when people who loves to be in charge of everything but can’t manage that craziness.

 Strange as this sound…that made me get up and get back into fight stance!  It’ ain’t over until God says it’s over!!!!

WE CAN’T WIN THIS WAR ON VIOLENCE UNTIL WE FIRST COME TO TERMS WITH SOME INTERNAL ISSUES

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 A STRUGGLE IS…   To contend with adversary or opposing forces

AN ISSUE IS…The act of sending out…putting forth

 Which one is it?

Who can take it another day?  No matter how people  like to sing and dance our way out of situations… I don’t care about all the community parties and ego organizing. We still have natural-born killers “haunting” our streets and communities.   What makes another human being kill another… is a heart conditions. I am not convinced that this is all social and economical ills… Certain people and their bad behavior is a recipe for criminal activities, violence and even murder! Sadly many misguided people prefer not deal with the onslaught that we are birthing killers indirectly some kind of way.  

Honestly, when you really speak truth to power… YOU REALLY WONT BE THAT POPULAR that’s why so many are  dumbing down and playing games!  Just listen a lot of the same response that wont challenge our people and neither does it mature them. Stop co-signing on the ignorance and the foolish rebuttals… Our struggles and issues are on a much larger scale… But first we have to stop blaming other people for what we have to begin or initiate healing for ourselves…And that might come on the skirts of keeping it real… OUR SHORT TERM DECISIONS  ON WHAT COULD BECOME A LONG TIME LIST OF LIFE STRUGGLES@

I am not one to make excuses or want others to follow me based on my  low self-esteem issues and that longing for attention. Our problems will exist whether you need be apart of the community popularity contest or not. It’s irritating and so passé’ .  I am not praising anyone or anything… we need results and that just ain’t happening. As simple as doing roll call about the business in your personal space can offset some of this nonsense.   Regardless of how much of this is dismissed…We need to check behaviors and stop coddling criminals and gang bangers! My compassionate is extended when on can take life serious enough to not project misplaced emotions on one another. Simple disputes are now leading to more deaths… REALLY?

I want others to take charge and take note…What you want to believe is working…It’s not!  Grabbing back the communities door by door, brick by brick takes some real courage and boldness. We have to stop making excuses about what is the real culprit while violence is escalating.  These are generational issues as well! Regardless of how we hate stereotypes… Many still play the game here… One foot in the truth and another foot with the lies. 

You see,… many issues maybe the results of why one turn violent… Last time I checked all status, employed, or unemployed,  uneducated and educated , rich or poor or still crowding the prison systems…

It’s the heart condition of our people, whether we can grasp it or not. We are not facing some truths!  We can do all the right things and put them in place but you will still deal with heart of someone’s dysfunction that still come via violent! 

We can’t blame the police, we can blame the mayors or any other leaders about what we have to take authority over ourselves as citizens in this country.    How much dumber can it get when idiots are driving by and shooting at other human beings? We  make excuses why they are killing each other.  You still have to ask what are they getting out of this? You can’t make sense out of these morons because regardless of their surroundings… you just don’t drive by and gun down people because you are either uneducated or unemployed the internal issues are much larger than this.

A family in Chicago, gun down like animals… and a one year old is fighting for survival… His mother is dead and so is his grandmother… Who cause this problem?  Why does it continues to happen? Stricter gun laws is just one part of the solution but internally there are some serious issues within the black and brown communities…  It’s time to re-strategize…

YET, AGAIN… I WANT THE WORLD TO SEE HOW SOME SERVE AND PROTECT

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 I was sent this video last night.  This angered me!  A warning that the  video is quite disturbing… A female officer behaving badly toward an inmate… Unfortunately this happens everyday… They look the other way! I guess this is what ancestral slavery did for this prison officer.

This “shift” is fired as far as I am concern…Expose more of these angry supercharged and power tripping officers in any positions! So much for rehabilitation!

GOOD READS…

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  I have started my Fall reads already.  Join me… get these books!

Neecy’s Lullaby…A book about a child’s life growing up in Chicago in the 1950’s challenging every household abuse imaginable.

Dead Wrong…A book about conspiracies… shows more inside information on historical deaths… which isn’t shared with the public which will make you think!

FALL IS MY FAVORITE SEASON THAT INTRODUCES CHANGE AND PREPARATION

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Although,  I am a winter baby…  the change of season has arrived… I love Fall…

Fall is my favorite  season because of the warmth and the beauty of changing. I love the mild winds and the cooler temperatures . 

The  beautiful leaves turning colors setting the atmosphere for preparing us for Winter. Personally any major changers for myself sets itself up in the Fall.  And you wouldn’t believe that all of my favorite colors are warm colors as well…

If there is such a time for me to really write and more focus… it is the Fall introducing me to Winter!

A MUST SEE: THIS WASN’T PRETTY HISTORY…. THE BLACK PANTHERS…VANGUARD OF THE REVOLUTION

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We have expose the ugliness and corruption in this world as well as in this country. It’s time we tell history with clarity and with the truth. What I have learned is when I study history many lies were also intertwined in the telling of the history. More and more research is exposing and debunking the lies that we are fed on regular basis. 

Please I ask that you take the time to educate yourselves  and learn to study your history instead of allowing  others to feed us only parts of it. Check out this documentary that will be showing near you!

Harvest Supermoon Eclipse Result of Rare Combination of Celestial Events | Chicago Tonight | WTTW

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Weather permitting, the Chicago area will be treated to prime time, front-row seats for a rare astronomical phenomenon Sunday evening when a total lunar eclipse of a simultaneous harvest moon, supermoon and blood moon rises above the horizon.

Source: Harvest Supermoon Eclipse Result of Rare Combination of Celestial Events | Chicago Tonight | WTTW

STOP ACTING AS IF MONSTERS AREN’T IN HUMAN FORM… CHILD ABUSE

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 I think when we live in certain parts of the world we think this or that can’t touch us. It doesn’t mean that world is less evil…It just hasn’t arrive at your door or you are ignoring it. Power tripping adults need more than a some mental help but they are dangerous. When you have to beat down a baby to show whose boss… You’re sick!   

Horribly Houston Texas has this monster… A man in his 30’s… sexually abused his  a 23 month old niece…Giving her 3 sexually transmitted diseases and tested positive for HIV molesting and he molested a   14 year old for two years who is now pregnant and she too tested HIV positive… Wait…they tell me there are more victims…  This infuriates me!  

Another  man in Houston, … rapes a 8 year old in front of his wife…

In Darby, Pa… Five children ages 1 to 12  were  subjected to physical and sexually abused by 5 adults in a house Pennsylvania.  A male 22,  who has a I year old son allegedly held another child down to perform a sexual act and she was only 2 years old .

The mother 31,  of   the four admitted that she was is also apart of the abuse by shooting the children with a BB Gun.   All of the males were under 25 years of age, and the mother  allowed this demonic behavior to her own children.

My heart tanked,.. something is wrong  when  many things in this country are not talked about because of its gruesomeness. It’s not stopping the abuse… but we have to be aware more than ever that some humans have no business being parents or allowed to look after children.

 When children are plotting against their own parents then you know something wicked has definitely come this way but when parents purposely served their children up we are in some serious trouble. We can’t ignore the signs! Child abuse is more out of control than we care to talk about and on the rise. Parental skills can’t help a sick mind.  Being physically and sexually abusive is not the only abuse. Emotional abuse is and has just as much negative impact on children.

Pray for these children and every child who  are  left mercilessly at the hands of individuals who are abusive… and  that knew these people were evil. We can’t ignore anymore demonic situations in this world because we will be confronted even more with what society refuse to recognize.  

CHRIST SHAMING AND CHURCH HURT… WHAT TO DO WHEN CHURCH MEMBERSHIP IS HURTING YOU

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A lady tells her story of being called names and she instead buys the rude women coffee. She didn’t respond with another negative comment she demonstrated great restraint. 

I can recall when I first got started in ministry… 

The jealousy of those who hated me because  I  love Christ and demonstrated his love.  How often I had to feed and help the very people who went out their way to be cruel to me. To be honest a lot hasn’t change when it comes to a  hard human heart. It’s how I respond to them that makes the difference in my level of maturity to deal with them.

I will never forget during a new members class how  I had given all my classmates including staff chocolates.  And you wouldn’t believe the opposition I had gotten  because I handed out candy.  I didn’t have to have brownie points… This is just who I am.  I had family members who did the same trying to instruct me on why I should stop being a giver.

I had never seen anything so quite immature even from people who claim to be ministers… I was embarrassed for them because I see the same catastrophe a lot.  This is how “wounds” are inflicted.  Bitterness never needs to rule the people. This is how division is created …doing your “own” agenda instead of God’s.  When love is absent in your walk… a daily communion with God is missing. These are tricks of the church…All ministers are not in love with God but some are in love with opportunities to be controlling or power trip.

It’s only a matter of time before they meet their devil match and then comes the embarrassment.  I didn’t want to believe that anyone in ministry was serving anyone with this level of cruelty.  I saw pettiness and better yet the jealousy for being kind was in the very one who should reflect better but it didn’t happen.

One man who was supposed to be the Pastor’s right hand… expressed his anger and said he hope what I was doing was legal… and that it wasn’t contraband. He tried to insinuate I was in this country illegally  and a racial slur against Hispanics.  His trusted side kicks  laughed in my face. But I knew they feared my strength.  I wasn’t  shaken with their antics but appalled that they were even apart of the Pastor’s circle!

But I knew it poured “hot coals” on his head when I had more than enough to give to those who had fed us that day. They were overwhelmed because they act as though they weren’t use to people loving on them. 

Yet, the hate filled dictator… was in charge of something.  He had a very evil disposition and I knew God would remove the joker.  I had  just given the idiot fine chocolates and he and his cronies were taking me there…  Many times I had to rise above a situation by showing  acts of kindness but I wasn’t stupid. I use the wisdom of God to counteract such foolishness as one who is supposed to teach and represent Christ.  Church today is dangerous because anyone and everyone is “allowed” to be in things and run things.   And you will be surprise how many people are wounded on  their watches…

1) Prepare to forgive but don’t personalize… We hope what is being preached is practiced

2) Forgive those who hurt you and move on don’t’ get caught up in the offenses. 

3) No church is perfect but discern when some are evil

4)Be committed to the truth and refrain from dumbing down

5) Don’t ignore warning signs  that it might be time to leave.

6) Stay teachable and don’t become bitter

7) If hypocrisy is coming from the pulpit…the fruit of hypocrisy is in the pews

8) Be respectable toward leadership even when he or she has shown no interest in correcting problems but keeping them…just know it might be time to  exit. Stand for the truth strongly even in betrayal by those in authority being silent.

9) Don’t create division and discord  know when it’s time to go

10) Don’t put your trust in people but with God.

I am always reminded of this… You can’t follow people you don’t respect. Some hated Christ for his love you shouldn’t be any different!